I started working on a new blogpost a few days ago, and I was coming on to finish that post so I could publish it…. but, I thought I would take a moment to compose this post, so I could update you all on how life has been lately and what’s been new 🤩

now, I normally wouldn’t be so excited to write a post like this….. BUT! today, I am kinda excited because I just HAVE to tell you all about my beautiful new collection of PLANTS! 👀🌱😅

if you’ve ever had the privilege of getting to know me more closely, then you already know I am obsessed with my plants! and, I have so many reasons why! one, they are the best effortless decor! they obviously offer wonderful health benefits such as purifying the air and, they really lift my spirits and add zest to my life. another thing I love about them is that, they can reproduce! I can have one plant and turn it into tons of plants, and that is something I am truly fascinated by. simply put, it’s giving: Goddess Energy!

I know it may seem silly to make an entire post to tell you guys all about my plants! LOL! but, this is a part of my journey I would love to let you all in on! tbh, there are so many ways for us to cope when we are feeling emotionally overwhelmed by the simple existence of life itself…. one coping mechanism I have found myself grasping more towards is…. NATURE.

so, in addition to spamming you all with my new plants, I would also like to share a little behind the scenes insight on how my personal life has been lately, and how I have been adjusting my lifestyle to accentuate my journey as a creator and influencer.

as I am composing this post, I am on a pet/housesitting assignment for SIX WHOLE DAYS LOL. this is my longest assignment since becoming a dedicated pet sitter a little over a year ago. I am caring for a senior lab mix who is fully blind, along with a senior corgi and two young corgis. some of their favorite things to do are swim, play catch, and ofc, they LOVE snacking and being spoiled with treats. I try to spoil them with love and attention more than anything else, which, they love the most!

the hardest part about being on an extended assignment is the time away from home…. I can’t obsess over my plants, firstly LOL. additionally, I am not able to film as I normally would, and/or produce footage for my YouTube and instagram. I will say though, I find myself working so much with the pets that I am too exhausted to put a lot of effort into everything else I would normally do.

the biggest elephant in the room right now is this damn head cold I got from my bf 🤦🏻‍♀️ this man was under the weather and didn’t even bother to tell me until I got whatever he had and now we both looking at each other silly LMAO! so, I guess its cool I can still do this job though I am under the weather…. but, as you all know, I am super sad I can’t work obsessively like a workaholic, as I normally would 😇 😆

to be fair, if you think anything like I do, then you will know that this is really a good sign, more than it is bad. I cannot even begin to express to you all how happy I am and proud of myself for the person I am becoming! #cycle #evolution

I just want to encourage anyone reading this post to take a moment to truly count all of your blessings. reflect on your life and take a moment to assess how much progress you’ve made along your journey! if you find yourself feeling discouraged, just give yourself a shoulder of support and remind yourself of beautiful affirmations to uplift your spirits. Life is as amazing as we imagine it can be, if only we are willing to envision.

here are some images of my wonderful green beauties! they are omgosh, I love all of them! some have been with me for two summers now, and others I recently purchased from a nursery.

and, to be fair, this actually isn’t all of them…. I have more that aren’t pictured LOL xoxoxoxo. I will share in a future post!

one thing I love about my plants is that, even though they are plants, they all have their own story! last summer I was always doing the nails of a girl who has lots of plants also. she would pay me in plants and I was just so ecstatic! I am happy to say I still have all of them, except 3. sadly, the ones I loved the most are dead lol! but, the prettiest ones can truly be the trickiest to maintain! and, since then, I have made it a priority to learn more about how to keep my plants healthy, and, how to use them to grow more plants!

I have a jade plant outside and it has been with me for at least 2-3 summers. it’s one of my favorites because it’s super pretty and very low maintenance….. well, so I thought LOL! I was trying to be lazy this summer and just keep it in its same pot, but something kept telling me to repot it. so, I listened! I am glad I did, because when I removed it from its pot, it was infested with gnats! omg. so, got that resolved.

as you can probably imagine, being a plant lady is hard work. it can be stressful at times. like, I got a couple elephant ears this season from Lowe’s and within a few days they had tripes…. omg I was in a panic bc I have other plants so! I threw those two new plants right outside to roast in the sun as punishment lol and washed them and treated them…. and they were safe to come back indoors. so, this is not really as hands-free of a hobby as I may have thought…. it can be stressful and exhausting lol! but what I have concluded is that, with the time and energy they consume, and the rollercoaster of emotions they put me through from time-to-time…. I would rather occupy myself that way than the contrary.

its sort of like ‘busy work’ lol except you have pretty greenery to look at 😝

The glory of gardening: hands in the dirt, head in the sun, heart with nature. To nurture a garden is to feed not just on the body, but the soul.
-Alfred Austin

Motherhood is a great honor and privilege, yet it is also synonymous with servanthood. Every day women are called upon to selflessly meet the needs of their families. Whether they are awake at night nursing a baby, spending their time and money on less-than-grateful teenagers, or preparing meals, moms continuously put others before themselves.
–Charles Stanley

for my little homeschoolers.

😅 since I can even remember I have always kept my kids on a year-round schooling schedule. there have been many benefits to this, for us. for starters, when I was new to being a mom and a homeschooling parent, I would simply fashion our homeschooling schedule and curriculum similarly to that of general society. wake up early, get ready for school, have breakfast, get to the school day, take a break for lunch and finish in the evening, do it all again the next day…

what I quickly began to learn through time and experience, is that homeschooling and traditional schooling are extremely different and require a different approach from one another. from my perspective, public school is more formal, while homeschooling is more intricate. so, I had to adapt to the understanding that a traditional schooling format wouldn’t be as effective for us, as compared to a format that complimented our day-to-day lives as a family.

once I mastered that part of the process, then I was faced with the obstacles of day-to-day life…. if you’re a homeschooling parent, then you know exactly what I mean! LOL! needless to say, when life gets hectic and kids get rebellious, year-round schooling becomes the balance 🧘🏻‍♀️

luckily, this school year went by rather smoothly. it does help that my daughter is a bit older and becoming more independent. my son is a teenager now, he helps a lot with our day-to-day flow, and he is also an independent learner so as long as he is held accountable, he typically performs well!

tbh, I don’t even know what we should do with ourselves this summer! 🤩👀

I made the smartest decision in my entire adult life! 👀

almost a year ago I took the leap of my life and committed to getting a puppy for the purpose of raising him to be my psychiatric service dog, to help me with my mental health (borderline personality disorder).

the first year has gone by so fast! I can’t even believe my little baby boy is already a 1 year-old! he has been in service since the day I picked him up from his breeder. he was the last of his litter to leave his mommy’s side. he has one brother and three sisters from his litter. I named him Alton ❤︎

to share a little story, I was on a petsitting assignment and it was for a girl toy poodle and a girl lab. they were both at least a couple to a few years old. but, the poodle was SUCH a sweetheart! everytime I would arrive she was so affectionate and loving. she was just such a joy to go visit for those few days! within a couple days of that assignment I had already saved the baby pics of Alton and told myself I really wanted to get him! I didn’t know how to inform my family and whatever their opinions were, wouldn’t sway my decision LOL!

I reached out to the breeder for details and I wasn’t fully decided because of the cost and the commitment. but, life was becoming so unbearable for me when I would have to go out in public or when I would have emotional outbursts at home. I couldn’t really get what I needed from another person. I needed to figure out how to help myself and I prayed about it. needless to say, I called the lady to tell her I wanted the puppy and she told me it was just in the knick of time because someone else wanted to come and meet him later that day! I QUICKLY forwarded over the payment and the rest is HISTORY! lol!!!!

I like to think Alton and I were 100% meant to be! ❤︎

If You Suffer from Mental Health Struggles

YOU ARE NOT ALONE!

Receiving a Spiritual Download

I typically wouldn’t share things of this sort with my audience here…. but the timing of my experience makes me want to simply document my most recent spiritual download with you all ❤︎ today, 6.16.24, there was a storm of energy that overtook me. I won’t elaborate too much, because spiritual downloads are very special and personal. however, here is a blog post that elaborates a bit. I want to use this as an opportunity to invite you all to tune into yourself and ground yourself with earth. You can receive a spiritual download too!

Have You Had a Spiritual Download? How to Tell and How to Get One

my advice? give yourself a new lease on life by being courageous enough to step away from the crowd and forge your own journey!

with motivational speakers, self-help coaches, and life advisors trending like a tidal wave, I want to be a voice of hope to anyone struggling to keep up and forge their own path to following their true life journey. any insight I share is typically from my own opinion, which is largely based on my experiences throughout my life.

oddly, many people who’ve known me over the years think I am either rather stuck-up, or they think I am crazy af LOL! I’ve learned to take it all as a compliment because the truth is…. I don’t give a (kind f*ck) about what anyone thinks of me. hahahaha. I never have! and, I doubt I ever will, fortunately!

from a very young age in life I was faced with many obstacles, and, i never did have a fair chance, if you ask me! I was never set up for success, with the very large exception of my grandmother teaching me who Jesus was. turns out, that was more than enough! I didn’t have MUCH guidance as a young lad… but, I had Jesus, I had God…. what more could I need? mmmm, and, I had the Bible! which, I was also taught the importance of. the Bible was explained to be a simple book of guidance along life. I was taught to understand that it would fill me in on the answers to any questions I had along the way, acting as a lamp along my footpath. I was smart enough to read between the lines and get to business…. thats what I did.

the best thing about me, is that, I have always been all about my business. now that I am reflecting, its like those babies you see and people say, this baby is wise beyond its’ years! they just know the baby was some former human born again. and, insanely, that is basically me. I was born into this world by mistake lol, but, nevertheless, INTENTIONALLY! make as much sense of it as you can, because, I’ve been attempting to do the same for over 30 years now, if you get my drift!

so, it’s true, we don’t get to choose our life really, we don’t get to choose our parents or our siblings. all we get to really choose is to fucking accept it LMAO ijs! hahaha. and, once I understood that, I was lightyears ahead of EVERYBODY! and, if I do say so myself, its the main reason I always stand out amongst the crowds…. its what makes me, ME!

now, that is just a bit of background info to give insight. I say all of that to say that these days, I have realized so much about the real cycle of life, the deeper meaning, and, my entry, existence, and departure.

TO BE CONTINUED…

when we are kids, we experience a natural desire to envision the love of our life…. we wonder what they look like, where they are, what they could be doing, what their name is….

I’m not sure if the difference between our imagination and reality fully sets in…. before we are whisked away by the journey of life itself.

when we grow older, and we reflect on our childhood…. we take a look around and see where life has taken us, who life has crossed our paths with….

and if we pay close enough attention, through all life’s peaks and valleys, all life’s chaos, through all the noise, through the beauty of it all….

we can see, our imagination wasn’t too far off from reality, after all ❤︎

happy father’s day to a girls first true love: dad! ❤︎

the best part about this Father’s Day is that it falls on my dads 56th birthday! 😎 this happens from time to time. it happened in 2013 and it happened in 2019. its so funny to reflect back on time. in 2013 I remember cursing my dad on his birthday/Father’s Day LOL! by 2019, I didn’t have contact with him at all, but I had grown to have so much more empathy and love towards him through the years. in 2020 we finally reunited… and in 2024, here we are! I can say, life is quite the journey.

ironically, I don’t know where my dad is right now or how he is doing. but, I still wanted to be sure to include a special tribute in case he ever sees it, to let him know: YOU ARE LOVED! 🥰 happy Father’s Day to the most unconventional father a girl could ever dream of. xoxo.

The depth of a father’s love shows in his daughter’s eyes.
What’s known is what’s shown from sunset to sunrise.
A foundation built on more than just what is spoken.
It’s commitments kept and promises that go unbroken.
An emotion so immense that nothing in this world can erase.
The permanent impression of love is tattooed upon her face.
A relation so peculiar that only the two can understand,
Yet so immaculate it’s obvious that, by God, it was planned.

I believe it all began when she would sleep upon your chest.
Now you’re her number one, her favorite, you’re the best!
You move and she watches so closely it’s as if she’s in a trance.
The fact that she can repeat you, exactly, isn’t just by chance.
From wrestling, racing, jump roping to being made up like a doll.
Both playmate and best friend, you’ve done some of it all.
A secret place, a look, special time just for her and you.
When a choice is to be made, it’s all about what Daddy wants to do.
And you’re there to cater to her every need and every wish.
There’s an invisible pedestal for Daddy’s little princess.
She’s content just to be. She’s filled with absolute bliss
Just to sit up under you, giving an occasional hug and kiss.
Sweet dreams are non-existent without Daddy’s goodnight kiss.
Your gentle stroke, words just for her, your cheek on hers is what she’d miss.
It’s simply because of how you love her, I surmise.
The depth of your love always shows in her eyes.

With you, her laughter is harder and her smile is even brighter.
You have a friendship, a bond, a soul tie that couldn’t be any tighter.
It’s more than a special bond; it’s an exclusive connection.
No room for a third party or attempted interjection.
This love is reserved just for Dad and no other.
It’s not the same for siblings, not even for Mother.
It’s the kind of love that I could never despise.
For the depth of your love always shows in her eyes.

To her, you’d give anything, but it’s not about the gift.
It’s that marvelous smile brought on by the spirit you lift.
It’s not about what you can give her or about what you can do.
It’s about the unconditional love reciprocated between you two.
It’s the tears in her eyes when you two disagree.
Nothing’s quite right until ‘I love you and I’m sorry.’
It’s that spunk in her step, the rainbow in her eye-
You’ll know she’s a Daddy’s girl when she passes by.
She’s got the kind of love that never fades or dies.
The depth of your love always shows in her eyes.

Upon angel wings you soar; your sparkling golden halo glows
Whenever she’s with you, it’s Heaven in her eyes that shows.
Her eyes hold a song so beautiful you’d think it was Heaven’s melody.
It’s the music of love’s symphony composed by each precious memory.
The love known is the love you’ve shown from sunset to sunrise.
The depth of your love will forever show in your daughter’s eyes.

❤︎

❤︎ Ari,

When I woke up and realized I had been dreaming about you, I honestly was so amazed and taken aback by the dream itself, and trying to remember every single detail even though I really couldn’t. The parts I could remember made better sense now that I was awake and now that I am composing this memo, the timing of this dream is even more symbolic.

I guess this is your way of letting me know you’re happily in heaven with your daddy. tbh, I can’t believe it. but, I just want you to know how deeply you’ve impacted and inspired me. I went on Instagram this morning and the first post I clicked on said: Your angel is with you. I just cannot. 😭

I honestly love you so much. God rest and bless your eternal soul! You are SUCH a BEAM OF LIGHT ON THIS PLANET! Your memory and your presence will touch the hearts of SO MANY! YOU CANNOT EVEN IMAGINE! and, truth be told, I can’t either.