Where do I begin?
Quote from thejoyofcola12 on November 6, 2024, 5:07 pmI guess an apology is the best place to start. In my head I had all these beautifully envisioned goals of things I wanted to learn, work on, grow, experience with all of you. Life rarely works out the way you plan....I kno duh......right?....lol....... I recently have been MIA the past couple days I had to take a much-needed mental health break. Writing like this, being exposed, is very new to me. So, I guess if I start from the beginning, maybe someone out there is going through the same stuff I am and they can relate.... I started my nail journey as a way to cope with the loss of my mom 3 years ago. I have not been right since.... Our relationship was...... complicated butat the end of the day she was my mom ya know ? This was never supposed to be more than something for me to do to be able to concentrate on something other than Cancer. Coloring and anything with vibrant paint instantly attracted my mom lol. She was gaudy and flamboyant, and I loved her. She was diagnosed in January and gone by October all while I was not ready for her to go. During her battle I started having physical issues that kept me from being at her bedside constantly (she lives out of town and I made the 400 mile trip as much as I could). Those issues have now made it very difficult for me to do what brought me out of my dark place with my mom. I cant sit at my nail desk, I cant paint lines, yall would be horrified of my nails lol. As I sit here and cry, please do not give up on me. I won't give up on myself. Even if all I can do is enjoy and help promote yalls work. Thats what I'll try to do. And every day I will sit back at that desk and try to do something.....
I guess an apology is the best place to start. In my head I had all these beautifully envisioned goals of things I wanted to learn, work on, grow, experience with all of you. Life rarely works out the way you plan....I kno duh......right?....lol....... I recently have been MIA the past couple days I had to take a much-needed mental health break. Writing like this, being exposed, is very new to me. So, I guess if I start from the beginning, maybe someone out there is going through the same stuff I am and they can relate.... I started my nail journey as a way to cope with the loss of my mom 3 years ago. I have not been right since.... Our relationship was...... complicated butat the end of the day she was my mom ya know ? This was never supposed to be more than something for me to do to be able to concentrate on something other than Cancer. Coloring and anything with vibrant paint instantly attracted my mom lol. She was gaudy and flamboyant, and I loved her. She was diagnosed in January and gone by October all while I was not ready for her to go. During her battle I started having physical issues that kept me from being at her bedside constantly (she lives out of town and I made the 400 mile trip as much as I could). Those issues have now made it very difficult for me to do what brought me out of my dark place with my mom. I cant sit at my nail desk, I cant paint lines, yall would be horrified of my nails lol. As I sit here and cry, please do not give up on me. I won't give up on myself. Even if all I can do is enjoy and help promote yalls work. Thats what I'll try to do. And every day I will sit back at that desk and try to do something.....